Breeding Anxiety

Breeding Anxiety

Have you ever thought to yourself, “Do I create my own anxiety?” If you have not had that thought, how real are you being with yourself? If you have had that thought, you are not alone. My blogging is designed to help those out there, especially women be real to be real with themselves, to think/examine themselves, and to come to the realization that we are not alone. This blog is meant for ENCOURAGEMENT and the nudging for SPIRITUAL GROWTH. Now of course, my blogs come with scripture. I wouldn’t being doing you, me, or anyone any justice if I didn’t. So, let’s start with this one: “Do not be anxious about anything–but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.“-Philippians 4:6

We are believers and devoted children of the most high right? So WHY do we struggle to obey Philippians 4:6? We are anxious when it comes to our education, family, children, marriage, health, you name it! Let me be real. I am one who honestly STRUGGLES with anxiety. I have gotten so much better in some areas but the anxiety has remained. Why is that? Let me tell you. In all honesty, WE CAUSE OUR OWN ANXIETY by the things and thoughts we put into our minds and the things that we speak. The word of God tells us “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendableif there is any virtue and if there is anything worthy of praisedwell on these things.”-Philippians 4:8 Isn’t it funny how these words come after the Lord telling us not to be anxious about anything? It took me a long time to realize that I cause my own anxiety and it is because of what I am meditating on? Ask yourself what are you meditating on? Instead of feeling our minds with and focusing on how people act towards us, what people say to us, what bills we have, if we are good wives, if we are good mothers, if we are good children to our parents, if we are worth anything, what people think of us, if we are good employees, what if you are sick, if we are doing enough, how are we going to get certain things done, and the list can go on and on for ANYBODY. The bottom line is those are NOT THE THINGS that we should be focusing on. Whatever concerns and worries we have, we are instructed to take them to God. Unfortunately, we do not always do that, or we do it but then pick it back up instead of leaving it there. I am at the point in my life where I am choosing to focus on WHO GOD IS, His LOVE, His GRACE, His WORD, my loveable and loving son, my husband and the good things he does and says, the career God has blessed me with, the home and family God has blessed me with, the transportation I have to get to my place of employment, the food God provides, I HAVE A LIST. Focus on the things that you know you do correctly and with a pure heart. Do not focus on your shortcomings. Focus on what you have accomplished, YES even the smallest things like completing your laundry for the day. Choose to meditate on the positive impact you make on the lives of others, because believe it or not you ARE making an impact. As a mother, wife, daughter, son, sibling, teacher, advocate (whatever your career entails), you ARE making an impact. Choose. I choose to meditate on those things that are worthy of praise, the lovely things, the pure things, the commendable things. I am choosing to speak life over my life (Proverbs 18:21). You have to decide what you will choose to do. Will you speak life or death? Will you meditate on the negative or the positive? Will you fill your mind with the things and love of God or the cares of life? Whatever choice you make, there is fruit that follows. Be Blessed!

Be Reminded

Be Reminded

How often do you forget that God has blessed you and chosen you? How many times have you felt like you were over looked or rejected? How many times has the enemy gotten in your ear about who you are? If any of your answers were ” sometimes, often, too many times, or a lot of times; then this blog is for you! Can I be honest with you? This blog is for me too!

It has been 7 years since my last blog. 7 years! You know what the number 7 represents in the bible? It represents the completeness or fullness. I have come full circle now. In these 7 years, I have felt rejected, forgotten about, talked about, left behind, tolerated, less than, and so many other things. I have felt so many emotions from sadness to hopelessness. I tried to encourage myself multiple times, but it just seemed like I could not get up. My life was spiraling out of control spiritually and naturally, I just could not keep up. It felt like everyone INCLUDING God constantly overlooked me. I found myself asking God, “When will it be my turn? When will people notice my heart and treat me right? Why do these things keep happening? When will I be a wife and mother?” I felt the need to control and get in the way of what GOD had planned for me. I acted like I could solve all my problems by myself. You know what that led to? NOTHING BUT DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY. I know that I am not the only one that has felt that way man or woman. I know now that I have not been alone this whole time. Did I stay down? YES FOR A SEASON….but I realized in the last 3 weeks that God has not forgotten about me when I thought he had. I learned that sometimes God will uproot you and place you EXACTLY where you need to be in HIS timing and not my own.

Today, I was watching a sermon by Heather Lindsey titled, “Are You Feeling Weary?” As I was watching, I realized that I have been Jonah for these last 7 years. The things that God has been putting in my heart, what He has been telling me to do; I have been disobedient. I was running from God because of all the rejection I felt and internalized. If you are not familiar with the story of Jonah in the bible, God gave him an assignment that he decided to run from. In a nutshell, instead of doing what God told him to do, he chose to be disobedient. He was disobedient to the point that he ended up in the belly of a whale for 3 days until he decided to finally stop running. Heather Lindsey said in her sermon that you can affect the lives of other people when you are in disobedience and out of position. Over the years I have constantly been disobedient and I constantly ran. I am a writer, an exhorter, and a minister’s wife all of which I pray AGAINST and ran from for years can you believe that? I can. The enemy is crafty isn’t he? Your mindset and thoughts can stand in your way if you don’t renew your mind.

God has been reminding me DAILY of WHO I AM IN HIM, how he blessed me and chose me for such a time as this. I am here to remind you today. It will NEVER be about what other people say or the enemy. It will ALWAYS be about what God says about you. GOD SAYS, you are chosen and blessed!! Don’t believe me? Let’s take a look:

“As holy people whom God has chosen and loved, be sympathetic, kind, humble, gentle, and patient.”-Colossians 3:12

“You are a holy people, who belong to the Lord your God. He chose you to be His own special possession out of all the nations on earth.”- Deuteronomy 7:6

“Taste and see that the Lord is good. Blessed is the person who takes refuge in Him.” Psalm 34:8.

Choose to believe what God says about you! YOU ARE BLESSED AND CHOSEN.